I was on an operating table, under anesthesia.

Suddenly I am running on a green grassy field towards

a giant sun.

I looked down, and see my legs and feet are small.

I am a child again. Running next to me is a little blonde hair, blue-eyed boy, we are holding hands and running toward the light together.

One of the most vivid memories of this experience is the feeling that everything is love, and I mean everything!

 

It is this all consuming love. the grass is love, the sun is love, I am love, the little blonde boy is love. Everything made of love. AND THEN...

there  are these waves of more love, like waves, it just kept rolling over everything, constant timing like a heartbeat. This was so amazing to experience.

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I felt no other emotion but this all powerful love.

Truly, the most incredible feeling I have ever had the joy of experiencing.

The closest thing I can compare it to, is that very first moment my child came into the world, and how it took my breath away.

truth be told however, even that pales in comparison to this otherworldly experience I've been blessed with. Words could never do it justice.

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The most significant two things that remained significant after the experience, is the fact that I can remember how I had no questions about anything.

 

all in life made perfect sense from that perspective. I also understood how interconnected we all are, not only to each other but to everything else in our existence from the biggest to the tiniest of matter.

 

Even more exciting is how we are all a part of this incredible love flowing energy that I experienced. It connects everything together through those heartbeats of pure love that makes up the fabric of all our existence.

God IS love. That's it.

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Finally, the most profound thing I learned that I am still trying to understand is how there is no time. Well, not linear like we think of anyway.

 

I experienced reality as eternal NOW(s). It is just a continuous moment of now.

Ie...

It is now... and it is now... and it is now... now just stretches into infinity. No need for a perception of past or future in this reality, as time is eternal.

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It was an amazing experience and while I was in that moment, I didn't really have much thought about the body I was leaving or the life I was leaving for that matter. 

I am just happily running towards the light in pure joy when suddenly I start to hear my name being called from behind me. I stopped running and I knew in that moment that I have a choice to make.

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I can either keep going forward towards the sun, or I can go back.

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The thing is, I never remembered making the choice to come back though.

The next thing I remember, I am on an operating table with bright lights in my face, and all the doctors frantically saying my name and telling me to stay with them.

 

Then I experienced the most excruciating pain I have ever felt to this day. Apparently they cut off my anesthesia and they were sewing me up as fast as they could. I was completely awake now and felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest.

I laid there crying and begging in agony to go back. I have vivid memories of me saying over and over, "No, please, I want to go back. Please let me go back!"

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It was so much more painful than just the physical pain. the realization of going from a place of pure love back to this place of pure pain was just devastating on all levels; Physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally...

 

In fact, it took me many years to stop being angry at doctors; for my perception was that they kept me here and I resented them for that.

 

Now I realize that I made the choice to return, not them. They had no power to hold me here if I wanted to leave.

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I'm glad I'm still here, if nothing else to share this life altering experience. If also left me with a few other gifts, namely working with those that are crossing over or recently deceased. 

Although I can do reading and receive messages for those souls departed for longer, but I seem to have a strong connection to those who are making their cross over. I have had some very mysterious encounters with those souls, some I know in person, others I have never met, but I am connecting through their loved ones. I feel this is what I brought back, and this is how I best serve humanity.

It's just the truth as I know it, from what I experienced. 

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I will not argue about this either, especially with anyone that is guessing at their own belief, when I have an absolute knowing of mine. I just smile and wave goodbye. 

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So the main message I will share with anyone that has read this far (thank you, your attention span is in the healthy range, which is increasingly more and more rare)

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I truly wish people could understand exactly what Jesus was teaching... We ARE all connected to each other. What we do to anyone else, we do to ourselves. Jesus taught us this, and I swear before Jesus, I experienced exactly his message through this glimpse.

 

Blessed Be.